Sunday, 18 January 2015

my chocolate ban lasted until a minute ago when i ate a yorkies man sized chocolate button

officially lasted until sunday the 18th of january 14:49

Thursday, 15 January 2015

My name is Rebecca Wells and I am a chocolate addict.
I've just eaten a 126g bag (sharing bag) of galaxy counters in ten minutes.

My latest mission is to see how long I can go without chocolate.
See if I have any willpower at all

So starting now, Thursday 15th of January 2015, 20:39 I will not eat another piece of chocolate until I truly can't go on any further. Or forget. I'll probably forget by tomorrow.

when jordan asked me what i wanted for christmas i said i wanted something that reminds me of when i was little
which is tricky cause i was just being awkward really 
and he did a bit of Facebook stalking
and he found this picture:
this is me being all adorable when i was small and my grandma knitted me that cardigan cause she's like a pro knitter or something (was clearly too small for me cause the sleeves are half way up my arms!) 
and because jordan is insanely acema, my christmas present is this: (i only got it on tuesday cause he was in a car accident and I've not seen him since the hospital (also it took him forever to make))
its so brilliant i love it more than sky rim
speaking of sky rim heres a picture of my playing sky rim in the jumper:
he always gets me way better presents than i get him
his present game is so chuffin high

Sunday, 11 January 2015

so eating more fruits going well guys
thanks for asking

I'm going on sky rim now to jump up and down and run around excessively to work it all off

Friday, 9 January 2015

instagram: beckbeckwells
just had my first piece of fruit this year
i really should eat more fruit rather than chocolate

jordan said something to me yesterday about apprenticeships 
something like its not a step backwards if it leads to something bigger
and i saw this today which is a mega coincidence 

Thursday, 8 January 2015

book for this month has literally been read tonight
eased myself in with a thin book
loved it!
i want james and the giant peach next
i only work on a saturday
a pitiful 8 hours
then i go home and do nothing for the rest of the week
then complain i don't have a proper job
and i have no money
cause I've been living off my student loan since may
but its quickly diminishing
because i had an extravagant summer and a generous christmas

i had this plan
i was never gonna live at home at the age of 21, i was gonna be long gone
but I'm nearly 22 now
i was gonna have a full time job by november when my phone was due for upgrade so i could pay it myself instead of letting my mother pay it
but november snook up quick so i havent upgraded
i said i'd carry on doing creative things like taking pictures, writing stories, making books after uni
but i haven't touched a camera since and it took me 8 days to make myself write in my diary today. the only thing i got into was making wrapping paper but that was only for christmas, I've not touched a stamp since then
i haven't even blogged for god knows how long
i also said i'd never get to this weight again but here i am

i appear to be in a funk
and its doing my head in
I'm being miserable and fed up and really i have no right to be

i have parents that let me live with them for free
so working 8 hours is purely money in my pocket
might not be much but it is more than some people get
i don't have a full time job because i haven't worked hard enough to get one
i dont force myself to apply for thousands and spend hours doing it because i get bored but I'm only damaging myself
all i'd have to do is even read for a little bit
thats inspiring which could then be turned into something creative but i can't even force myself to read
which is the easiest thing to do, just sit and read
and I'm the weight i am through no one else's doing
and since when is weight everything
who gives a fuck how much i weigh
if i don't care no one else can care
i have my health
if jordan and zoe can be in a car accident and come out relatively okay and work through it i can't really justify anything that I'm doing right now

i can sit here all day and feel sorry for myself
or i can man the fuck up and sort my life out
and believe me when i say i am not one of them 'new year new me' twats
cause that stuffs just bollocks
this has been a long time coming
i just need to stop being so lazy
cause thats all this comes down to
im a lazy procrastinating idiot who loves to blame the world for all this rather than take responsibility 

these are the things that need to be put in motion as soon as i press the little 


1. finding a job is my number one priority
2. i must blog or write in my diary at least once a day
3. i will see my sister at least once a week for craft wednesdays 
4. read a book a month - it can't be that hard
5. save up money instead of feeling the need to have new shiny things all the time
6. i will NOT buy a watch at all this year. not even one. not even a small one. nopenopenope
7. have a far better attitude at work, i should be thankful not ungrateful
8. if someone is nasty to me i will cut them out instead of making excuses for them
9. go for walks again, i used to love doing that

the annoying thing is
this is all doable 
and its easy
i just needed a kick up the arse and i think i got it when i let someone who is nasty and malicious actually affect my mood
nasty people are nasty for a reason but it isn't my problem to solve
and i don't have time for them

Sunday, 4 January 2015

i have a degree yet i can't figure out how to make pages on my blog
someone just put me down already

Friday, 2 January 2015